Ayyyyye!!! I’m 21 Twice 😭🎂🍰😊😆

Although I will be celebrating all October...I officially turned 2️⃣1️⃣ twice yesterday🎂Most of you already know that I've been waiting to be in my 40's since I was 19....Now that I've fully immersed both feet into this season, I can honestly say that 42 is proving to be fuller and more joyful than I ever hoped for.....but if I'm remaining transparent, memories of my 30's are very bleak and achromatic. That unseasoned season of learning and relearning who I was and wasn't, while desperately trying to be seen, heard, protected and loved was debilitating. However, after paying a hefty tuition to the school of Hard Knocks...I awakened to see that all of those deficiencies were deeply lost inside of me. My minors at HK were lack of self-awareness and people pleasing.

There were two dysfunctional systems that ran most my 30’s. The autopilot system that said I’m not good enough unless others are happy with me/my behavior/my accomplishments….and the autopilot system of enduring pain for the sake of being strong, loyal and keeping it real. Literally an inside joke when all of your senses go silence from forgetting the sound of your own voice. But that was then.The past definitely groomed me....but the NOW is giving yours truly a fly ass shape up😘

Here’s what I know in this season🌎

✨ The universe is always conspiring for my best & highest good

✨How others view me isn’t indicative of my

self-love, but more of a compass of where they are in their season

✨Actions speak louder than the GREATEST intention

And most importantly…....Drums PLEAAASE

🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁🥁

✨Ima just keep getting finer & finer & mo finer & mo better

I’m so sincere😆

Thank you all for the bearthday love and for allowing me to celebrate you everytime we meet on the mat. Let’s continue to celebrate each other, even if it’s not our season.

Namaste

Terri BE 💛